Perspective

per·spec·tive (p r-sp k t v). n. 1. a. A view or vista. b. A mental view or outlook

So I'm sitting here, alone, in my house (ultimately avoiding housework).  My daughter is away this weekend visiting her dad (for an extra day this time).  It's these weekends that are actually the hardest on me.  It's always SO quitet in my house when she's away.  When it's this quiet, my mind runs wild, and it's at these times I really have to train my thinking to "not go there".  I often think of things like "how could you do this to me?", "Your taking MY daughter for your regular visits when you didn't even want a child in the first place",  "I've essentially given you a free pass to not HAVE to be a dad, and now you're choosing what you say you didn't want."  

OK, so I'm going to look at this situation from a different perspective....I have regular time to take care of myself.  Regular time to catch up on sleep, housework, shopping, whatever it may be.  Not all moms get that, and I am very fortunate to have this time for me.  The circumstances are unfortunate, but oh well.  And, the fact that my daughter does have time with her dad is important.  In fact, she now has more time with her dad than she did before.  So, I do beleive that is a blessing, not only for her, but for her dad as well.  I have no doubt that she is teaching him something amazing about life, love and true happiness...I just wish I could see it!


So, as I sit here alone, I am thanking God for everything he has blessed me with, even in my darkest hour.